Double Edged

Many times I find myself at odds with our current culture and the views that the majority keeps. During some of these times, I find I wish I couldn’t see the truth. I wish I could buy into the fallacies that mask the real root problems and issues. I become aware of my isolating feelings that come over me when I do my best to abide by truth, to look at it, and accept it’s hard firm stance that makes me uncomfortable and disconnected from others. I would rather be ho-hum, cheery, and accepting of all people’s views, beliefs, and desires...not to mention my very own. But I can’t. Because I know the truth. It's also a very weary feeling knowing the truth of God and choosing to live by it day by day, even though part of you wants to run from it and fall into the false reality that the world seems to continually turn towards. I mean come on, don’t tell me you haven’t heard some of these before... 'All truth is relative and different for everyone.' 'I just take bits and pieces from the Bible, Buddha, secular humanism, and craft my own ideologies for my own truth.' 'I mean God really never got it correct, let’s make it better and improve on it adding our own human intellect to it because it’s really archaic and dated, I mean we as a society are totally woke now.' ...Sigh... Sorry.

I just can’t buy into it, no matter my feelings, or relationship status with the individuals who may have these beliefs. And it’s tough because sometimes I really don’t like knowing God and truth, because of not only others’, but my own feelings, desires, and passions. I mean God is totally right, it really is a double edged sword. ...But again, it’s true. I can remember talking to my pastor about truth and how I didn’t like how it made me feel. At times it hurt, other times I was placed in a spot I didn’t want to be in, and I had to endure hardships. I didn’t like truth at those times, but I submitted to it, because it is true. Then I finished by finding out that anywhere where there is truth, is where I want to be. Now, I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be fake. I don’t want to be an alternative, lower version of myself. I want to be true of who I am as a person. The only way for me to do that, I believe, is to grasp the truth of God in spite of myself, and how I feel. I pray you do as well. I pray you stick with the truth, despite your feelings and thoughts. I pray you stick with the truth, despite the world's views and adaptations of ‘truth.’ I pray you stick with the real truth. “Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”” ‭‭- John‬ ‭14:6-7‬